Song of Myself
by
Walter Whitman
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"Song of Myself" is a poem by Walt Whitman (1819–1892). The poem is included in his work ‘Leaves of Grass’. This poem represents the core of Whitman's poetic vision.
The
poem was first published without sections as the first of twelve untitled poems
in the first (1855) edition of Leaves of Grass. The first edition was published
by Whitman at his own expense. In the second (1856) edition, Whitman used the
title "Poem of Walt Whitman, an American," which was shortened to
"Walt Whitman" for the third (1860) edition.
The
poem was divided into fifty-two numbered sections for the fourth (1867) edition
and finally took on the title "Song of Myself" in the last edition
(1891–2). The number of sections is generally thought to mirror the number of
weeks in the year.
Song of
Myself (1892 version)
1
I celebrate myself,
and sing myself,
And what I assume you
shall assume,
For every atom belonging
to me as good belongs to you.
I loafe and invite my
soul,
I lean and loafe at
my ease observing a spear of summer grass.
My tongue, every atom
of my blood, form’d from this soil, this air,
Born here of parents
born here from parents the same, and their parents the same,
I, now thirty-seven
years old in perfect health begin,
Hoping to cease not
till death.
Creeds and schools in
abeyance,
Retiring back a while
sufficed at what they are, but never forgotten,
I harbor for good or
bad, I permit to speak at every hazard,
Nature without check
with original energy.
2
Houses and rooms are
full of perfumes, the shelves are crowded with perfumes,
I breathe the
fragrance myself and know it and like it,
The distillation
would intoxicate me also, but I shall not let it.
The atmosphere is not
a perfume, it has no taste of the distillation, it is odorless,
It is for my mouth
forever, I am in love with it,
I will go to the bank
by the wood and become undisguised and naked,
I am mad for it to be
in contact with me.
The smoke of my own
breath,
Echoes, ripples,
buzz’d whispers, love-root, silk-thread, crotch and vine,
My respiration and
inspiration, the beating of my heart, the passing of blood and air through my
lungs,
The sniff of green
leaves and dry leaves, and of the shore and dark-color’d sea-rocks, and of hay
in the barn,
The sound of the
belch’d words of my voice loos’d to the eddies of the wind,
A few light kisses, a
few embraces, a reaching around of arms,
The play of shine and
shade on the trees as the supple boughs wag,
The delight alone or
in the rush of the streets, or along the fields and hill-sides,
The feeling of
health, the full-noon trill, the song of me rising from bed and meeting the
sun.
Have you reckon’d a
thousand acres much? have you reckon’d the earth much?
Have you practis’d so
long to learn to read?
Have you felt so
proud to get at the meaning of poems?
Stop this day and
night with me and you shall possess the origin of all poems,
You shall possess the
good of the earth and sun, (there are millions of suns left,)
You shall no longer
take things at second or third hand, nor look through the eyes of the dead, nor
feed on the spectres in books,
You shall not look
through my eyes either, nor take things from me,
You shall listen to
all sides and filter them from your self.
3
I have heard what the
talkers were talking, the talk of the beginning and the end,
But I do not talk of
the beginning or the end.
There was never any
more inception than there is now,
Nor any more youth or
age than there is now,
And will never be any
more perfection than there is now,
Nor any more heaven
or hell than there is now.
Urge and urge and
urge,
Always the procreant
urge of the world.
Out of the dimness
opposite equals advance, always substance and increase, always sex,
Always a knit of
identity, always distinction, always a breed of life.
To elaborate is no
avail, learn’d and unlearn’d feel that it is so.
Sure as the most
certain sure, plumb in the uprights, well entretied, braced in the beams,
Stout as a horse,
affectionate, haughty, electrical,
I and this mystery
here we stand.
Clear and sweet is my
soul, and clear and sweet is all that is not my soul.
Lack one lacks both,
and the unseen is proved by the seen,
Till that becomes
unseen and receives proof in its turn.
Showing the best and
dividing it from the worst age vexes age,
Knowing the perfect
fitness and equanimity of things, while they discuss I am silent, and go bathe
and admire myself.
Welcome is every
organ and attribute of me, and of any man hearty and clean,
Not an inch nor a
particle of an inch is vile, and none shall be less familiar than the rest.
I am satisfied—I see,
dance, laugh, sing;
As the hugging and
loving bed-fellow sleeps at my side through the night, and withdraws at the
peep of the day with stealthy tread,
Leaving me baskets
cover’d with white towels swelling the house with their plenty,
Shall I postpone my
acceptation and realization and scream at my eyes,
That they turn from
gazing after and down the road,
And forthwith cipher
and show me to a cent,
Exactly the value of
one and exactly the value of two, and which is ahead?
4
Trippers and askers
surround me,
People I meet, the
effect upon me of my early life or the ward and city I live in, or the nation,
The latest dates,
discoveries, inventions, societies, authors old and new,
My dinner, dress,
associates, looks, compliments, dues,
The real or fancied
indifference of some man or woman I love,
The sickness of one
of my folks or of myself, or ill-doing or loss or lack of money, or depressions
or exaltations,
Battles, the horrors
of fratricidal war, the fever of doubtful news, the fitful events;
These come to me days
and nights and go from me again,
But they are not the
Me myself.
Apart from the
pulling and hauling stands what I am,
Stands amused,
complacent, compassionating, idle, unitary,
Looks down, is erect,
or bends an arm on an impalpable certain rest,
Looking with
side-curved head curious what will come next,
Both in and out of
the game and watching and wondering at it.
Backward I see in my
own days where I sweated through fog with linguists and contenders,
I have no mockings or
arguments, I witness and wait.
5
I believe in you my
soul, the other I am must not abase itself to you,
And you must not be abased
to the other.
Loafe with me on the
grass, loose the stop from your throat,
Not words, not music
or rhyme I want, not custom or lecture, not even the best,
Only the lull I like,
the hum of your valvèd voice.
I mind how once we
lay such a transparent summer morning,
How you settled your
head athwart my hips and gently turn’d over upon me,
And parted the shirt
from my bosom-bone, and plunged your tongue to my bare-stript heart,
And reach’d till you
felt my beard, and reach’d till you held my feet.
Swiftly arose and
spread around me the peace and knowledge that pass all the argument of the
earth,
And I know that the
hand of God is the promise of my own,
And I know that the
spirit of God is the brother of my own,
And that all the men
ever born are also my brothers, and the women my sisters and lovers,
And that a kelson of
the creation is love,
And limitless are
leaves stiff or drooping in the fields,
And brown ants in the
little wells beneath them,
And mossy scabs of
the worm fence, heap’d stones, elder, mullein and poke-weed.
6
A child said What is
the grass? fetching it to me with full hands;
How could I answer
the child? I do not know what it is any more than he.
I guess it must be
the flag of my disposition, out of hopeful green stuff woven.
Or I guess it is the
handkerchief of the Lord,
A scented gift and
remembrancer designedly dropt,
Bearing the owner’s
name someway in the corners, that we may see and remark, and say Whose?
Or I guess the grass
is itself a child, the produced babe of the vegetation.
Or I guess it is a
uniform hieroglyphic,
And it means,
Sprouting alike in broad zones and narrow zones,
Growing among black
folks as among white,
Kanuck, Tuckahoe,
Congressman, Cuff, I give them the same, I receive them the same.
And now it seems to
me the beautiful uncut hair of graves.
Tenderly will I use
you curling grass,
It may be you
transpire from the breasts of young men,
It may be if I had
known them I would have loved them,
It may be you are
from old people, or from offspring taken soon out of their mothers’ laps,
And here you are the
mothers’ laps.
This grass is very
dark to be from the white heads of old mothers,
Darker than the
colorless beards of old men,
Dark to come from under
the faint red roofs of mouths.
O I perceive after
all so many uttering tongues,
And I perceive they
do not come from the roofs of mouths for nothing.
I wish I could
translate the hints about the dead young men and women,
And the hints about
old men and mothers, and the offspring taken soon out of their laps.
What do you think has
become of the young and old men?
And what do you think
has become of the women and children?
They are alive and
well somewhere,
The smallest sprout
shows there is really no death,
And if ever there was
it led forward life, and does not wait at the end to arrest it,
And ceas’d the moment
life appear’d.
All goes onward and
outward, nothing collapses,
And to die is
different from what any one supposed, and luckier.
7
Has any one supposed
it lucky to be born?
I hasten to inform
him or her it is just as lucky to die, and I know it.
I pass death with the
dying and birth with the new-wash’d babe, and am not contain’d between my hat
and boots,
And peruse manifold objects,
no two alike and every one good,
The earth good and
the stars good, and their adjuncts all good.
I am not an earth nor
an adjunct of an earth,
I am the mate and
companion of people, all just as immortal and fathomless as myself,
(They do not know how
immortal, but I know.)
Every kind for itself
and its own, for me mine male and female,
For me those that
have been boys and that love women,
For me the man that
is proud and feels how it stings to be slighted,
For me the
sweet-heart and the old maid, for me mothers and the mothers of mothers,
For me lips that have
smiled, eyes that have shed tears,
For me children and
the begetters of children.
Undrape! you are not
guilty to me, nor stale nor discarded,
I see through the
broadcloth and gingham whether or no,
And am around,
tenacious, acquisitive, tireless, and cannot be shaken away.
8
The little one sleeps
in its cradle,
I lift the gauze and
look a long time, and silently brush away flies with my hand.
The youngster and the
red-faced girl turn aside up the bushy hill,
I peeringly view them
from the top.
The suicide sprawls
on the bloody floor of the bedroom,
I witness the corpse
with its dabbled hair, I note where the pistol has fallen.
The blab of the pave,
tires of carts, sluff of boot-soles, talk of the promenaders,
The heavy omnibus,
the driver with his interrogating thumb, the clank of the shod horses on the
granite floor,
The snow-sleighs,
clinking, shouted jokes, pelts of snow-balls,
The hurrahs for
popular favorites, the fury of rous’d mobs,
The flap of the
curtain’d litter, a sick man inside borne to the hospital,
The meeting of
enemies, the sudden oath, the blows and fall,
The excited crowd,
the policeman with his star quickly working his passage to the centre of the
crowd,
The impassive stones
that receive and return so many echoes,
What groans of
over-fed or half-starv’d who fall sunstruck or in fits,
What exclamations of
women taken suddenly who hurry home and give birth to babes,
What living and
buried speech is always vibrating here, what howls restrain’d by decorum,
Arrests of criminals,
slights, adulterous offers made, acceptances, rejections with convex lips,
I mind them or the
show or resonance of them—I come and I depart.
9
The big doors of the
country barn stand open and ready,
The dried grass of
the harvest-time loads the slow-drawn wagon,
The clear light plays
on the brown gray and green intertinged,
The armfuls are
pack’d to the sagging mow.
I am there, I help, I
came stretch’d atop of the load,
I felt its soft
jolts, one leg reclined on the other,
I jump from the
cross-beams and seize the clover and timothy,
And roll head over
heels and tangle my hair full of wisps.
10
Alone far in the
wilds and mountains I hunt,
Wandering amazed at
my own lightness and glee,
In the late afternoon
choosing a safe spot to pass the night,
Kindling a fire and
broiling the fresh-kill’d game,
Falling asleep on the
gather’d leaves with my dog and gun by my side.
The Yankee clipper is
under her sky-sails, she cuts the sparkle and scud,
My eyes settle the
land, I bend at her prow or shout joyously from the deck.
The boatmen and
clam-diggers arose early and stopt for me,
I tuck’d my
trowser-ends in my boots and went and had a good time;
You should have been
with us that day round the chowder-kettle.
I saw the marriage of
the trapper in the open air in the far west, the bride was a red girl,
Her father and his
friends sat near cross-legged and dumbly smoking, they had moccasins to their
feet and large thick blankets hanging from their shoulders,
On a bank lounged the
trapper, he was drest mostly in skins, his luxuriant beard and curls protected
his neck, he held his bride by the hand,
She had long
eyelashes, her head was bare, her coarse straight locks descended upon her
voluptuous limbs and reach’d to her feet.
The runaway slave
came to my house and stopt outside,
I heard his motions
crackling the twigs of the woodpile,
Through the swung
half-door of the kitchen I saw him limpsy and weak,
And went where he sat
on a log and led him in and assured him,
And brought water and
fill’d a tub for his sweated body and bruis’d feet,
And gave him a room
that enter’d from my own, and gave him some coarse clean clothes,
And remember
perfectly well his revolving eyes and his awkwardness,
And remember putting
plasters on the galls of his neck and ankles;
He staid with me a
week before he was recuperated and pass’d north,
I had him sit next me
at table, my fire-lock lean’d in the corner.
11
Twenty-eight young
men bathe by the shore,
Twenty-eight young
men and all so friendly;
Twenty-eight years of
womanly life and all so lonesome.
She owns the fine
house by the rise of the bank,
She hides handsome
and richly drest aft the blinds of the window.
Which of the young
men does she like the best?
Ah the homeliest of
them is beautiful to her.
Where are you off to,
lady? for I see you,
You splash in the
water there, yet stay stock still in your room.
Dancing and laughing
along the beach came the twenty-ninth bather,
The rest did not see
her, but she saw them and loved them.
The beards of the
young men glisten’d with wet, it ran from their long hair,
Little streams pass’d
all over their bodies.
An unseen hand also
pass’d over their bodies,
It descended
tremblingly from their temples and ribs.
The young men float
on their backs, their white bellies bulge to the sun, they do not ask who
seizes fast to them,
They do not know who
puffs and declines with pendant and bending arch,
They do not think
whom they souse with spray.
12
The butcher-boy puts
off his killing-clothes, or sharpens his knife at the stall in the market,
I loiter enjoying his
repartee and his shuffle and break-down.
Blacksmiths with
grimed and hairy chests environ the anvil,
Each has his
main-sledge, they are all out, there is a great heat in the fire.
From the
cinder-strew’d threshold I follow their movements,
The lithe sheer of
their waists plays even with their massive arms,
Overhand the hammers
swing, overhand so slow, overhand so sure,
They do not hasten,
each man hits in his place.
13
The negro holds
firmly the reins of his four horses, the block swags underneath on its
tied-over chain,
The negro that drives
the long dray of the stone-yard, steady and tall he stands pois’d on one leg on
the string-piece,
His blue shirt
exposes his ample neck and breast and loosens over his hip-band,
His glance is calm
and commanding, he tosses the slouch of his hat away from his forehead,
The sun falls on his
crispy hair and mustache, falls on the black of his polish’d and perfect limbs.
I behold the
picturesque giant and love him, and I do not stop there,
I go with the team
also.
In me the caresser of
life wherever moving, backward as well as forward sluing,
To niches aside and
junior bending, not a person or object missing,
Absorbing all to
myself and for this song.
Oxen that rattle the
yoke and chain or halt in the leafy shade, what is that you express in your
eyes?
It seems to me more
than all the print I have read in my life.
My tread scares the
wood-drake and wood-duck on my distant and day-long ramble,
They rise together,
they slowly circle around.
I believe in those
wing’d purposes,
And acknowledge red,
yellow, white, playing within me,
And consider green
and violet and the tufted crown intentional,
And do not call the
tortoise unworthy because she is not something else,
And the jay in the
woods never studied the gamut, yet trills pretty well to me,
And the look of the
bay mare shames silliness out of me.
14
The wild gander leads
his flock through the cool night,
Ya-honk he says, and
sounds it down to me like an invitation,
The pert may suppose
it meaningless, but I listening close,
Find its purpose and
place up there toward the wintry sky.
The sharp-hoof’d
moose of the north, the cat on the house-sill, the chickadee, the prairie-dog,
The litter of the
grunting sow as they tug at her teats,
The brood of the
turkey-hen and she with her half-spread wings,
I see in them and
myself the same old law.
The press of my foot
to the earth springs a hundred affections,
They scorn the best I
can do to relate them.
I am enamour’d of
growing out-doors,
Of men that live
among cattle or taste of the ocean or woods,
Of the builders and
steerers of ships and the wielders of axes and mauls, and the drivers of
horses,
I can eat and sleep
with them week in and week out.
What is commonest,
cheapest, nearest, easiest, is Me,
Me going in for my
chances, spending for vast returns,
Adorning myself to
bestow myself on the first that will take me,
Not asking the sky to
come down to my good will,
Scattering it freely
forever.
15
The pure contralto
sings in the organ loft,
The carpenter dresses
his plank, the tongue of his foreplane whistles its wild ascending lisp,
The married and
unmarried children ride home to their Thanksgiving dinner,
The pilot seizes the
king-pin, he heaves down with a strong arm,
The mate stands
braced in the whale-boat, lance and harpoon are ready,
The duck-shooter
walks by silent and cautious stretches,
The deacons are
ordain’d with cross’d hands at the altar,
The spinning-girl
retreats and advances to the hum of the big wheel,
The farmer stops by
the bars as he walks on a First-day loafe and looks at the oats and rye,
The lunatic is
carried at last to the asylum a confirm’d case,
(He will never sleep
any more as he did in the cot in his mother’s bed-room;)
The jour printer with
gray head and gaunt jaws works at his case,
He turns his quid of
tobacco while his eyes blurr with the manuscript;
The malform’d limbs
are tied to the surgeon’s table,
What is removed drops
horribly in a pail;
The quadroon girl is
sold at the auction-stand, the drunkard nods by the bar-room stove,
The machinist rolls
up his sleeves, the policeman travels his beat, the gate-keeper marks who pass,
The young fellow
drives the express-wagon, (I love him, though I do not know him;)
The half-breed straps
on his light boots to compete in the race,
The western
turkey-shooting draws old and young, some lean on their rifles, some sit on
logs,
Out from the crowd
steps the marksman, takes his position, levels his piece;
The groups of
newly-come immigrants cover the wharf or levee,
As the woolly-pates
hoe in the sugar-field, the overseer views them from his saddle,
The bugle calls in
the ball-room, the gentlemen run for their partners, the dancers bow to each
other,
The youth lies awake
in the cedar-roof’d garret and harks to the musical rain,
The Wolverine sets
traps on the creek that helps fill the Huron,
The squaw wrapt in
her yellow-hemm’d cloth is offering moccasins and bead-bags for sale,
The connoisseur peers
along the exhibition-gallery with half-shut eyes bent sideways,
As the deck-hands
make fast the steamboat the plank is thrown for the shore-going passengers,
The young sister
holds out the skein while the elder sister winds it off in a ball, and stops
now and then for the knots,
The one-year wife is
recovering and happy having a week ago borne her first child,
The clean-hair’d
Yankee girl works with her sewing-machine or in the factory or mill,
The paving-man leans
on his two-handed rammer, the reporter’s lead flies swiftly over the note-book,
the sign-painter is lettering with blue and gold,
The canal boy trots
on the tow-path, the book-keeper counts at his desk, the shoemaker waxes his
thread,
The conductor beats
time for the band and all the performers follow him,
The child is baptized,
the convert is making his first professions,
The regatta is spread
on the bay, the race is begun, (how the white sails sparkle!)
The drover watching
his drove sings out to them that would stray,
The pedler sweats
with his pack on his back, (the purchaser higgling about the odd cent;)
The bride unrumples
her white dress, the minute-hand of the clock moves slowly,
The opium-eater
reclines with rigid head and just-open’d lips,
The prostitute
draggles her shawl, her bonnet bobs on her tipsy and pimpled neck,
The crowd laugh at
her blackguard oaths, the men jeer and wink to each other,
(Miserable! I do not
laugh at your oaths nor jeer you;)
The President holding
a cabinet council is surrounded by the great Secretaries,
On the piazza walk
three matrons stately and friendly with twined arms,
The crew of the
fish-smack pack repeated layers of halibut in the hold,
The Missourian
crosses the plains toting his wares and his cattle,
As the fare-collector
goes through the train he gives notice by the jingling of loose change,
The floor-men are
laying the floor, the tinners are tinning the roof, the masons are calling for
mortar,
In single file each
shouldering his hod pass onward the laborers;
Seasons pursuing each
other the indescribable crowd is gather’d, it is the fourth of Seventh-month,
(what salutes of cannon and small arms!)
Seasons pursuing each
other the plougher ploughs, the mower mows, and the winter-grain falls in the
ground;
Off on the lakes the
pike-fisher watches and waits by the hole in the frozen surface,
The stumps stand
thick round the clearing, the squatter strikes deep with his axe,
Flatboatmen make fast
towards dusk near the cotton-wood or pecan-trees,
Coon-seekers go
through the regions of the Red river or through those drain’d by the Tennessee,
or through those of the Arkansas,
Torches shine in the
dark that hangs on the Chattahooche or Altamahaw,
Patriarchs sit at
supper with sons and grandsons and great-grandsons around them,
In walls of adobie,
in canvas tents, rest hunters and trappers after their day’s sport,
The city sleeps and
the country sleeps,
The living sleep for
their time, the dead sleep for their time,
The old husband
sleeps by his wife and the young husband sleeps by his wife;
And these tend inward
to me, and I tend outward to them,
And such as it is to
be of these more or less I am,
And of these one and
all I weave the song of myself.
16
I am of old and
young, of the foolish as much as the wise,
Regardless of others,
ever regardful of others,
Maternal as well as
paternal, a child as well as a man,
Stuff’d with the
stuff that is coarse and stuff’d with the stuff that is fine,
One of the Nation of
many nations, the smallest the same and the largest the same,
A Southerner soon as
a Northerner, a planter nonchalant and hospitable down by the Oconee I live,
A Yankee bound my own
way ready for trade, my joints the limberest joints on earth and the sternest
joints on earth,
A Kentuckian walking
the vale of the Elkhorn in my deer-skin leggings, a Louisianian or Georgian,
A boatman over lakes
or bays or along coasts, a Hoosier, Badger, Buckeye;
At home on Kanadian
snow-shoes or up in the bush, or with fishermen off Newfoundland,
At home in the fleet
of ice-boats, sailing with the rest and tacking,
At home on the hills
of Vermont or in the woods of Maine, or the Texan ranch,
Comrade of
Californians, comrade of free North-Westerners, (loving their big proportions,)
Comrade of raftsmen
and coalmen, comrade of all who shake hands and welcome to drink and meat,
A learner with the
simplest, a teacher of the thoughtfullest,
A novice beginning
yet experient of myriads of seasons,
Of every hue and
caste am I, of every rank and religion,
A farmer, mechanic,
artist, gentleman, sailor, quaker,
Prisoner, fancy-man,
rowdy, lawyer, physician, priest.
I resist any thing
better than my own diversity,
Breathe the air but
leave plenty after me,
And am not stuck up,
and am in my place.
(The moth and the
fish-eggs are in their place,
The bright suns I see
and the dark suns I cannot see are in their place,
The palpable is in
its place and the impalpable is in its place.)
17
These are really the
thoughts of all men in all ages and lands, they are not original with me,
If they are not yours
as much as mine they are nothing, or next to nothing,
If they are not the
riddle and the untying of the riddle they are nothing,
If they are not just
as close as they are distant they are nothing.
This is the grass
that grows wherever the land is and the water is,
This the common air
that bathes the globe.
18
With music strong I
come, with my cornets and my drums,
I play not marches
for accepted victors only, I play marches for conquer’d and slain persons.
Have you heard that
it was good to gain the day?
I also say it is good
to fall, battles are lost in the same spirit in which they are won.
I beat and pound for the
dead,
I blow through my
embouchures my loudest and gayest for them.
Vivas to those who
have fail’d!
And to those whose
war-vessels sank in the sea!
And to those
themselves who sank in the sea!
And to all generals
that lost engagements, and all overcome heroes!
And the numberless
unknown heroes equal to the greatest heroes known!
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This is the meal
equally set, this the meat for natural hunger,
It is for the wicked
just the same as the righteous, I make appointments with all,
I will not have a
single person slighted or left away,
The kept-woman,
sponger, thief, are hereby invited,
The heavy-lipp’d
slave is invited, the venerealee is invited;
There shall be no
difference between them and the rest.
This is the press of
a bashful hand, this the float and odor of hair,
This the touch of my
lips to yours, this the murmur of yearning,
This the far-off
depth and height reflecting my own face,
This the thoughtful
merge of myself, and the outlet again.
Do you guess I have
some intricate purpose?
Well I have, for the
Fourth-month showers have, and the mica on the side of a rock has.
Do you take it I
would astonish?
Does the daylight
astonish? does the early redstart twittering through the woods?
Do I astonish more
than they?
This hour I tell
things in confidence,
I might not tell
everybody, but I will tell you.
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Who goes there?
hankering, gross, mystical, nude;
How is it I extract
strength from the beef I eat?
What is a man anyhow?
what am I? what are you?
All I mark as my own
you shall offset it with your own,
Else it were time
lost listening to me.
I do not snivel that
snivel the world over,
That months are
vacuums and the ground but wallow and filth.
Whimpering and
truckling fold with powders for invalids, conformity goes to the fourth-remov’d,
I wear my hat as I
please indoors or out.
Why should I pray?
why should I venerate and be ceremonious?
Having pried through
the strata, analyzed to a hair, counsel’d with doctors and calculated close,
I find no sweeter fat
than sticks to my own bones.
In all people I see
myself, none more and not one a barley-corn less,
And the good or bad I
say of myself I say of them.
I know I am solid and
sound,
To me the converging
objects of the universe perpetually flow,
All are written to
me, and I must get what the writing means.
I know I am
deathless,
I know this orbit of
mine cannot be swept by a carpenter’s compass,
I know I shall not
pass like a child’s carlacue cut with a burnt stick at night.
I know I am august,
I do not trouble my
spirit to vindicate itself or be understood,
I see that the
elementary laws never apologize,
(I reckon I behave no
prouder than the level I plant my house by, after all.)
I exist as I am, that
is enough,
If no other in the
world be aware I sit content,
And if each and all
be aware I sit content.
One world is aware
and by far the largest to me, and that is myself,
And whether I come to
my own to-day or in ten thousand or ten million years,
I can cheerfully take
it now, or with equal cheerfulness I can wait.
My foothold is
tenon’d and mortis’d in granite,
I laugh at what you
call dissolution,
And I know the
amplitude of time.
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I am the poet of the
Body and I am the poet of the Soul,
The pleasures of
heaven are with me and the pains of hell are with me,
The first I graft and
increase upon myself, the latter I translate into a new tongue.
I am the poet of the
woman the same as the man,
And I say it is as
great to be a woman as to be a man,
And I say there is
nothing greater than the mother of men.
I chant the chant of
dilation or pride,
We have had ducking
and deprecating about enough,
I show that size is
only development.
Have you outstript
the rest? are you the President?
It is a trifle, they
will more than arrive there every one, and still pass on.
I am he that walks
with the tender and growing night,
I call to the earth
and sea half-held by the night.
Press close
bare-bosom’d night—press close magnetic nourishing night!
Night of south
winds—night of the large few stars!
Still nodding night—mad
naked summer night.
Smile O voluptuous
cool-breath’d earth!
Earth of the
slumbering and liquid trees!
Earth of departed
sunset—earth of the mountains misty-topt!
Earth of the vitreous
pour of the full moon just tinged with blue!
Earth of shine and
dark mottling the tide of the river!
Earth of the limpid
gray of clouds brighter and clearer for my sake!
Far-swooping elbow’d
earth—rich apple-blossom’d earth!
Smile, for your lover
comes.
Prodigal, you have
given me love—therefore I to you give love!
O unspeakable
passionate love.
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You sea! I resign
myself to you also—I guess what you mean,
I behold from the
beach your crooked inviting fingers,
I believe you refuse
to go back without feeling of me,
We must have a turn
together, I undress, hurry me out of sight of the land,
Cushion me soft, rock
me in billowy drowse,
Dash me with amorous
wet, I can repay you.
Sea of stretch’d
ground-swells,
Sea breathing broad
and convulsive breaths,
Sea of the brine of
life and of unshovell’d yet always-ready graves,
Howler and scooper of
storms, capricious and dainty sea,
I am integral with
you, I too am of one phase and of all phases.
Partaker of influx
and efflux I, extoller of hate and conciliation,
Extoller of amies and
those that sleep in each others’ arms.
I am he attesting
sympathy,
(Shall I make my list
of things in the house and skip the house that supports them?)
I am not the poet of
goodness only, I do not decline to be the poet of wickedness also.
What blurt is this
about virtue and about vice?
Evil propels me and
reform of evil propels me, I stand indifferent,
My gait is no
fault-finder’s or rejecter’s gait,
I moisten the roots
of all that has grown.
Did you fear some
scrofula out of the unflagging pregnancy?
Did you guess the
celestial laws are yet to be work’d over and rectified?
I find one side a
balance and the antipodal side a balance,
Soft doctrine as
steady help as stable doctrine,
Thoughts and deeds of
the present our rouse and early start.
This minute that
comes to me over the past decillions,
There is no better
than it and now.
What behaved well in
the past or behaves well to-day is not such a wonder,
The wonder is always
and always how there can be a mean man or an infidel.
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Endless unfolding of
words of ages!
And mine a word of the
modern, the word En-Masse.
A word of the faith
that never balks,
Here or henceforward
it is all the same to me, I accept Time absolutely.
It alone is without
flaw, it alone rounds and completes all,
That mystic baffling
wonder alone completes all.
I accept Reality and
dare not question it,
Materialism first and
last imbuing.
Hurrah for positive
science! long live exact demonstration!
Fetch stonecrop mixt
with cedar and branches of lilac,
This is the
lexicographer, this the chemist, this made a grammar of the old cartouches,
These mariners put
the ship through dangerous unknown seas.
This is the
geologist, this works with the scalpel, and this is a mathematician.
Gentlemen, to you the
first honors always!
Your facts are
useful, and yet they are not my dwelling,
I but enter by them
to an area of my dwelling.
Less the reminders of
properties told my words,
And more the
reminders they of life untold, and of freedom and extrication,
And make short
account of neuters and geldings, and favor men and women fully equipt,
And beat the gong of
revolt, and stop with fugitives and them that plot and conspire.
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Walt Whitman, a
kosmos, of Manhattan the son,
Turbulent, fleshy,
sensual, eating, drinking and breeding,
No sentimentalist, no
stander above men and women or apart from them,
No more modest than
immodest.
Unscrew the locks
from the doors!
Unscrew the doors
themselves from their jambs!
Whoever degrades
another degrades me,
And whatever is done
or said returns at last to me.
Through me the
afflatus surging and surging, through me the current and index.
I speak the pass-word
primeval, I give the sign of democracy,
By God! I will accept
nothing which all cannot have their counterpart of on the same terms.
Through me many long
dumb voices,
Voices of the
interminable generations of prisoners and slaves,
Voices of the
diseas’d and despairing and of thieves and dwarfs,
Voices of cycles of
preparation and accretion,
And of the threads
that connect the stars, and of wombs and of the father-stuff,
And of the rights of
them the others are down upon,
Of the deform’d,
trivial, flat, foolish, despised,
Fog in the air,
beetles rolling balls of dung.
Through me forbidden
voices,
Voices of sexes and
lusts, voices veil’d and I remove the veil,
Voices indecent by me
clarified and transfigur’d.
I do not press my
fingers across my mouth,
I keep as delicate
around the bowels as around the head and heart,
Copulation is no more
rank to me than death is.
I believe in the
flesh and the appetites,
Seeing, hearing,
feeling, are miracles, and each part and tag of me is a miracle.
Divine am I inside
and out, and I make holy whatever I touch or am touch’d from,
The scent of these
arm-pits aroma finer than prayer,
This head more than
churches, bibles, and all the creeds.
If I worship one
thing more than another it shall be the spread of my own body, or any part of
it,
Translucent mould of
me it shall be you!
Shaded ledges and
rests it shall be you!
Firm masculine colter
it shall be you!
Whatever goes to the
tilth of me it shall be you!
You my rich blood!
your milky stream pale strippings of my life!
Breast that presses
against other breasts it shall be you!
My brain it shall be
your occult convolutions!
Root of wash’d
sweet-flag! timorous pond-snipe! nest of guarded duplicate eggs! it shall be
you!
Mix’d tussled hay of
head, beard, brawn, it shall be you!
Trickling sap of
maple, fibre of manly wheat, it shall be you!
Sun so generous it
shall be you!
Vapors lighting and
shading my face it shall be you!
You sweaty brooks and
dews it shall be you!
Winds whose
soft-tickling genitals rub against me it shall be you!
Broad muscular
fields, branches of live oak, loving lounger in my winding paths, it shall be
you!
Hands I have taken,
face I have kiss’d, mortal I have ever touch’d, it shall be you.
I dote on myself,
there is that lot of me and all so luscious,
Each moment and
whatever happens thrills me with joy,
I cannot tell how my
ankles bend, nor whence the cause of my faintest wish,
Nor the cause of the
friendship I emit, nor the cause of the friendship I take again.
That I walk up my
stoop, I pause to consider if it really be,
A morning-glory at my
window satisfies me more than the metaphysics of books.
To behold the
day-break!
The little light
fades the immense and diaphanous shadows,
The air tastes good
to my palate.
Hefts of the moving
world at innocent gambols silently rising freshly exuding,
Scooting obliquely
high and low.
Something I cannot
see puts upward libidinous prongs,
Seas of bright juice
suffuse heaven.
The earth by the sky
staid with, the daily close of their junction,
The heav’d challenge
from the east that moment over my head,
The mocking taunt,
See then whether you shall be master!
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Dazzling and
tremendous how quick the sun-rise would kill me,
If I could not now and
always send sun-rise out of me.
We also ascend
dazzling and tremendous as the sun,
We found our own O my
soul in the calm and cool of the daybreak.
My voice goes after
what my eyes cannot reach,
With the twirl of my
tongue I encompass worlds and volumes of worlds.
Speech is the twin of
my vision, it is unequal to measure itself,
It provokes me
forever, it says sarcastically,
Walt you contain
enough, why don’t you let it out then?
Come now I will not
be tantalized, you conceive too much of articulation,
Do you not know O
speech how the buds beneath you are folded?
Waiting in gloom,
protected by frost,
The dirt receding
before my prophetical screams,
I underlying causes
to balance them at last,
My knowledge my live
parts, it keeping tally with the meaning of all things,
Happiness, (which
whoever hears me let him or her set out in search of this day.)
My final merit I
refuse you, I refuse putting from me what I really am,
Encompass worlds, but
never try to encompass me,
I crowd your sleekest
and best by simply looking toward you.
Writing and talk do
not prove me,
I carry the plenum of
proof and every thing else in my face,
With the hush of my
lips I wholly confound the skeptic.
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Now I will do nothing
but listen,
To accrue what I hear
into this song, to let sounds contribute toward it.
I hear bravuras of
birds, bustle of growing wheat, gossip of flames, clack of sticks cooking my
meals,
I hear the sound I
love, the sound of the human voice,
I hear all sounds
running together, combined, fused or following,
Sounds of the city
and sounds out of the city, sounds of the day and night,
Talkative young ones
to those that like them, the loud laugh of work-people at their meals,
The angry base of
disjointed friendship, the faint tones of the sick,
The judge with hands
tight to the desk, his pallid lips pronouncing a death-sentence,
The heave’e’yo of
stevedores unlading ships by the wharves, the refrain of the anchor-lifters,
The ring of
alarm-bells, the cry of fire, the whirr of swift-streaking engines and
hose-carts with premonitory tinkles and color’d lights,
The steam whistle,
the solid roll of the train of approaching cars,
The slow march play’d
at the head of the association marching two and two,
(They go to guard
some corpse, the flag-tops are draped with black muslin.)
I hear the
violoncello, (’tis the young man’s heart’s complaint,)
I hear the key’d
cornet, it glides quickly in through my ears,
It shakes mad-sweet
pangs through my belly and breast.
I hear the chorus, it
is a grand opera,
Ah this indeed is
music—this suits me.
A tenor large and
fresh as the creation fills me,
The orbic flex of his
mouth is pouring and filling me full.
I hear the train’d
soprano (what work with hers is this?)
The orchestra whirls
me wider than Uranus flies,
It wrenches such
ardors from me I did not know I possess’d them,
It sails me, I dab
with bare feet, they are lick’d by the indolent waves,
I am cut by bitter
and angry hail, I lose my breath,
Steep’d amid honey’d
morphine, my windpipe throttled in fakes of death,
At length let up
again to feel the puzzle of puzzles,
And that we call
Being.
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To be in any form,
what is that?
(Round and round we
go, all of us, and ever come back thither,)
If nothing lay more
develop’d the quahaug in its callous shell were enough.
Mine is no callous
shell,
I have instant
conductors all over me whether I pass or stop,
They seize every
object and lead it harmlessly through me.
I merely stir, press,
feel with my fingers, and am happy,
To touch my person to
some one else’s is about as much as I can stand.
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Is this then a touch?
quivering me to a new identity,
Flames and ether
making a rush for my veins,
Treacherous tip of me
reaching and crowding to help them,
My flesh and blood
playing out lightning to strike what is hardly different from myself,
On all sides prurient
provokers stiffening my limbs,
Straining the udder
of my heart for its withheld drip,
Behaving licentious
toward me, taking no denial,
Depriving me of my
best as for a purpose,
Unbuttoning my
clothes, holding me by the bare waist,
Deluding my confusion
with the calm of the sunlight and pasture-fields,
Immodestly sliding
the fellow-senses away,
They bribed to swap
off with touch and go and graze at the edges of me,
No consideration, no
regard for my draining strength or my anger,
Fetching the rest of
the herd around to enjoy them a while,
Then all uniting to
stand on a headland and worry me.
The sentries desert
every other part of me,
They have left me
helpless to a red marauder,
They all come to the
headland to witness and assist against me.
I am given up by
traitors,
I talk wildly, I have
lost my wits, I and nobody else am the greatest traitor,
I went myself first
to the headland, my own hands carried me there.
You villain touch!
what are you doing? my breath is tight in its throat,
Unclench your
floodgates, you are too much for me.
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Blind loving
wrestling touch, sheath’d hooded sharp-tooth’d touch!
Did it make you ache
so, leaving me?
Parting track’d by
arriving, perpetual payment of perpetual loan,
Rich showering rain,
and recompense richer afterward.
Sprouts take and
accumulate, stand by the curb prolific and vital,
Landscapes projected
masculine, full-sized and golden.
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All truths wait in
all things,
They neither hasten
their own delivery nor resist it,
They do not need the
obstetric forceps of the surgeon,
The insignificant is
as big to me as any,
(What is less or more
than a touch?)
Logic and sermons
never convince,
The damp of the night
drives deeper into my soul.
(Only what proves
itself to every man and woman is so,
Only what nobody
denies is so.)
A minute and a drop
of me settle my brain,
I believe the soggy
clods shall become lovers and lamps,
And a compend of
compends is the meat of a man or woman,
And a summit and
flower there is the feeling they have for each other,
And they are to
branch boundlessly out of that lesson until it becomes omnific,
And until one and all
shall delight us, and we them.
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I believe a leaf of
grass is no less than the journey-work of the stars,
And the pismire is
equally perfect, and a grain of sand, and the egg of the wren,
And the tree-toad is
a chef-d’œuvre for the highest,
And the running
blackberry would adorn the parlors of heaven,
And the narrowest
hinge in my hand puts to scorn all machinery,
And the cow crunching
with depress’d head surpasses any statue,
And a mouse is
miracle enough to stagger sextillions of infidels.
I find I incorporate
gneiss, coal, long-threaded moss, fruits, grains, esculent roots,
And am stucco’d with
quadrupeds and birds all over,
And have distanced
what is behind me for good reasons,
But call any thing
back again when I desire it.
In vain the speeding
or shyness,
In vain the plutonic
rocks send their old heat against my approach,
In vain the mastodon
retreats beneath its own powder’d bones,
In vain objects stand
leagues off and assume manifold shapes,
In vain the ocean
settling in hollows and the great monsters lying low,
In vain the buzzard
houses herself with the sky,
In vain the snake
slides through the creepers and logs,
In vain the elk takes
to the inner passes of the woods,
In vain the
razor-bill’d auk sails far north to Labrador,
I follow quickly, I
ascend to the nest in the fissure of the cliff.
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I think I could turn
and live with animals, they are so placid and self-contain’d,
I stand and look at
them long and long.
They do not sweat and
whine about their condition,
They do not lie awake
in the dark and weep for their sins,
They do not make me
sick discussing their duty to God,
Not one is
dissatisfied, not one is demented with the mania of owning things,
Not one kneels to
another, nor to his kind that lived thousands of years ago,
Not one is
respectable or unhappy over the whole earth.
So they show their
relations to me and I accept them,
They bring me tokens
of myself, they evince them plainly in their possession.
I wonder where they
get those tokens,
Did I pass that way
huge times ago and negligently drop them?
Myself moving forward
then and now and forever,
Gathering and showing
more always and with velocity,
Infinite and
omnigenous, and the like of these among them,
Not too exclusive toward
the reachers of my remembrancers,
Picking out here one
that I love, and now go with him on brotherly terms.
A gigantic beauty of
a stallion, fresh and responsive to my caresses,
Head high in the
forehead, wide between the ears,
Limbs glossy and supple,
tail dusting the ground,
Eyes full of
sparkling wickedness, ears finely cut, flexibly moving.
His nostrils dilate
as my heels embrace him,
His well-built limbs
tremble with pleasure as we race around and return.
I but use you a
minute, then I resign you, stallion,
Why do I need your
paces when I myself out-gallop them?
Even as I stand or
sit passing faster than you.
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Space and Time! now I
see it is true, what I guess’d at,
What I guess’d when I
loaf’d on the grass,
What I guess’d while
I lay alone in my bed,
And again as I walk’d
the beach under the paling stars of the morning.
My ties and ballasts
leave me, my elbows rest in sea-gaps,
I skirt sierras, my
palms cover continents,
I am afoot with my
vision.
By the city’s
quadrangular houses—in log huts, camping with lumbermen,
Along the ruts of the
turnpike, along the dry gulch and rivulet bed,
Weeding my
onion-patch or hoeing rows of carrots and parsnips, crossing savannas, trailing
in forests,
Prospecting,
gold-digging, girdling the trees of a new purchase,
Scorch’d ankle-deep
by the hot sand, hauling my boat down the shallow river,
Where the panther
walks to and fro on a limb overhead, where the buck turns furiously at the
hunter,
Where the rattlesnake
suns his flabby length on a rock, where the otter is feeding on fish,
Where the alligator
in his tough pimples sleeps by the bayou,
Where the black bear
is searching for roots or honey, where the beaver pats the mud with his
paddle-shaped tail;
Over the growing
sugar, over the yellow-flower’d cotton plant, over the rice in its low moist
field,
Over the sharp-peak’d
farm house, with its scallop’d scum and slender shoots from the gutters,
Over the western
persimmon, over the long-leav’d corn, over the delicate blue-flower flax,
Over the white and
brown buckwheat, a hummer and buzzer there with the rest,
Over the dusky green
of the rye as it ripples and shades in the breeze;
Scaling mountains,
pulling myself cautiously up, holding on by low scragged limbs,
Walking the path worn
in the grass and beat through the leaves of the brush,
Where the quail is
whistling betwixt the woods and the wheat-lot,
Where the bat flies
in the Seventh-month eve, where the great gold-bug drops through the dark,
Where the brook puts
out of the roots of the old tree and flows to the meadow,
Where cattle stand
and shake away flies with the tremulous shuddering of their hides,
Where the
cheese-cloth hangs in the kitchen, where andirons straddle the hearth-slab,
where cobwebs fall in festoons from the rafters;
Where trip-hammers
crash, where the press is whirling its cylinders,
Wherever the human
heart beats with terrible throes under its ribs,
Where the pear-shaped
balloon is floating aloft, (floating in it myself and looking composedly down,)
Where the life-car is
drawn on the slip-noose, where the heat hatches pale-green eggs in the dented
sand,
Where the she-whale
swims with her calf and never forsakes it,
Where the steam-ship
trails hind-ways its long pennant of smoke,
Where the fin of the
shark cuts like a black chip out of the water,
Where the half-burn’d
brig is riding on unknown currents,
Where shells grow to
her slimy deck, where the dead are corrupting below;
Where the
dense-starr’d flag is borne at the head of the regiments,
Approaching Manhattan
up by the long-stretching island,
Under Niagara, the
cataract falling like a veil over my countenance,
Upon a door-step,
upon the horse-block of hard wood outside,
Upon the race-course,
or enjoying picnics or jigs or a good game of base-ball,
At he-festivals, with
blackguard gibes, ironical license, bull-dances, drinking, laughter,
At the cider-mill
tasting the sweets of the brown mash, sucking the juice through a straw,
At apple-peelings
wanting kisses for all the red fruit I find,
At musters,
beach-parties, friendly bees, huskings, house-raisings;
Where the
mocking-bird sounds his delicious gurgles, cackles, screams, weeps,
Where the hay-rick
stands in the barn-yard, where the dry-stalks are scatter’d, where the
brood-cow waits in the hovel,
Where the bull
advances to do his masculine work, where the stud to the mare, where the cock
is treading the hen,
Where the heifers
browse, where geese nip their food with short jerks,
Where sun-down
shadows lengthen over the limitless and lonesome prairie,
Where herds of
buffalo make a crawling spread of the square miles far and near,
Where the
humming-bird shimmers, where the neck of the long-lived swan is curving and
winding,
Where the
laughing-gull scoots by the shore, where she laughs her near-human laugh,
Where bee-hives range
on a gray bench in the garden half hid by the high weeds,
Where band-neck’d
partridges roost in a ring on the ground with their heads out,
Where burial coaches
enter the arch’d gates of a cemetery,
Where winter wolves
bark amid wastes of snow and icicled trees,
Where the
yellow-crown’d heron comes to the edge of the marsh at night and feeds upon
small crabs,
Where the splash of
swimmers and divers cools the warm noon,
Where the katy-did
works her chromatic reed on the walnut-tree over the well,
Through patches of
citrons and cucumbers with silver-wired leaves,
Through the salt-lick
or orange glade, or under conical firs,
Through the
gymnasium, through the curtain’d saloon, through the office or public hall;
Pleas’d with the
native and pleas’d with the foreign, pleas’d with the new and old,
Pleas’d with the
homely woman as well as the handsome,
Pleas’d with the
quakeress as she puts off her bonnet and talks melodiously,
Pleas’d with the tune
of the choir of the whitewash’d church,
Pleas’d with the
earnest words of the sweating Methodist preacher, impress’d seriously at the
camp-meeting;
Looking in at the
shop-windows of Broadway the whole forenoon, flatting the flesh of my nose on
the thick plate glass,
Wandering the same
afternoon with my face turn’d up to the clouds, or down a lane or along the
beach,
My right and left
arms round the sides of two friends, and I in the middle;
Coming home with the
silent and dark-cheek’d bush-boy, (behind me he rides at the drape of the day,)
Far from the settlements
studying the print of animals’ feet, or the moccasin print,
By the cot in the
hospital reaching lemonade to a feverish patient,
Nigh the coffin’d
corpse when all is still, examining with a candle;
Voyaging to every
port to dicker and adventure,
Hurrying with the
modern crowd as eager and fickle as any,
Hot toward one I
hate, ready in my madness to knife him,
Solitary at midnight
in my back yard, my thoughts gone from me a long while,
Walking the old hills
of Judæa with the beautiful gentle God by my side,
Speeding through
space, speeding through heaven and the stars,
Speeding amid the
seven satellites and the broad ring, and the diameter of eighty thousand miles,
Speeding with tail’d
meteors, throwing fire-balls like the rest,
Carrying the crescent
child that carries its own full mother in its belly,
Storming, enjoying,
planning, loving, cautioning,
Backing and filling,
appearing and disappearing,
I tread day and night
such roads.
I visit the orchards
of spheres and look at the product,
And look at
quintillions ripen’d and look at quintillions green.
I fly those flights
of a fluid and swallowing soul,
My course runs below
the soundings of plummets.
I help myself to
material and immaterial,
No guard can shut me
off, no law prevent me.
I anchor my ship for
a little while only,
My messengers
continually cruise away or bring their returns to me.
I go hunting polar
furs and the seal, leaping chasms with a pike-pointed staff, clinging to
topples of brittle and blue.
I ascend to the
foretruck,
I take my place late
at night in the crow’s-nest,
We sail the arctic
sea, it is plenty light enough,
Through the clear
atmosphere I stretch around on the wonderful beauty,
The enormous masses
of ice pass me and I pass them, the scenery is plain in all directions,
The white-topt
mountains show in the distance, I fling out my fancies toward them,
We are approaching
some great battle-field in which we are soon to be engaged,
We pass the colossal
outposts of the encampment, we pass with still feet and caution,
Or we are entering by
the suburbs some vast and ruin’d city,
The blocks and fallen
architecture more than all the living cities of the globe.
I am a free
companion, I bivouac by invading watchfires,
I turn the bridegroom
out of bed and stay with the bride myself,
I tighten her all
night to my thighs and lips.
My voice is the
wife’s voice, the screech by the rail of the stairs,
They fetch my man’s
body up dripping and drown’d.
I understand the
large hearts of heroes,
The courage of
present times and all times,
How the skipper saw
the crowded and rudderless wreck of the steam-ship, and Death chasing it up and
down the storm,
How he knuckled tight
and gave not back an inch, and was faithful of days and faithful of nights,
And chalk’d in large letters
on a board, Be of good cheer, we will not desert you;
How he follow’d with
them and tack’d with them three days and would not give it up,
How he saved the
drifting company at last,
How the lank
loose-gown’d women look’d when boated from the side of their prepared graves,
How the silent
old-faced infants and the lifted sick, and the sharp-lipp’d unshaved men;
All this I swallow,
it tastes good, I like it well, it becomes mine,
I am the man, I
suffer’d, I was there.
The disdain and
calmness of martyrs,
The mother of old,
condemn’d for a witch, burnt with dry wood, her children gazing on,
The hounded slave
that flags in the race, leans by the fence, blowing, cover’d with sweat,
The twinges that
sting like needles his legs and neck, the murderous buckshot and the bullets,
All these I feel or
am.
I am the hounded
slave, I wince at the bite of the dogs,
Hell and despair are
upon me, crack and again crack the marksmen,
I clutch the rails of
the fence, my gore dribs, thinn’d with the ooze of my skin,
I fall on the weeds
and stones,
The riders spur their
unwilling horses, haul close,
Taunt my dizzy ears
and beat me violently over the head with whip-stocks.
Agonies are one of my
changes of garments,
I do not ask the
wounded person how he feels, I myself become the wounded person,
My hurts turn livid
upon me as I lean on a cane and observe.
I am the mash’d
fireman with breast-bone broken,
Tumbling walls buried
me in their debris,
Heat and smoke I
inspired, I heard the yelling shouts of my comrades,
I heard the distant
click of their picks and shovels,
They have clear’d the
beams away, they tenderly lift me forth.
I lie in the night
air in my red shirt, the pervading hush is for my sake,
Painless after all I
lie exhausted but not so unhappy,
White and beautiful
are the faces around me, the heads are bared of their fire-caps,
The kneeling crowd
fades with the light of the torches.
Distant and dead
resuscitate,
They show as the dial
or move as the hands of me, I am the clock myself.
I am an old artillerist,
I tell of my fort’s bombardment,
I am there again.
Again the long roll
of the drummers,
Again the attacking
cannon, mortars,
Again to my listening
ears the cannon responsive.
I take part, I see
and hear the whole,
The cries, curses, roar,
the plaudits for well-aim’d shots,
The ambulanza slowly
passing trailing its red drip,
Workmen searching
after damages, making indispensable repairs,
The fall of grenades
through the rent roof, the fan-shaped explosion,
The whizz of limbs,
heads, stone, wood, iron, high in the air.
Again gurgles the
mouth of my dying general, he furiously waves with his hand,
He gasps through the
clot Mind not me—mind—the entrenchments.
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Now I tell what I
knew in Texas in my early youth,
(I tell not the fall
of Alamo,
Not one escaped to
tell the fall of Alamo,
The hundred and fifty
are dumb yet at Alamo,)
’Tis the tale of the
murder in cold blood of four hundred and twelve young men.
Retreating they had
form’d in a hollow square with their baggage for breastworks,
Nine hundred lives
out of the surrounding enemy’s, nine times their number, was the price they
took in advance,
Their colonel was
wounded and their ammunition gone,
They treated for an
honorable capitulation, receiv’d writing and seal, gave up their arms and
march’d back prisoners of war.
They were the glory
of the race of rangers,
Matchless with horse,
rifle, song, supper, courtship,
Large, turbulent,
generous, handsome, proud, and affectionate,
Bearded, sunburnt,
drest in the free costume of hunters,
Not a single one over
thirty years of age.
The second First-day
morning they were brought out in squads and massacred, it was beautiful early
summer,
The work commenced
about five o’clock and was over by eight.
None obey’d the
command to kneel,
Some made a mad and
helpless rush, some stood stark and straight,
A few fell at once,
shot in the temple or heart, the living and dead lay together,
The maim’d and
mangled dug in the dirt, the new-comers saw them there,
Some half-kill’d
attempted to crawl away,
These were despatch’d
with bayonets or batter’d with the blunts of muskets,
A youth not seventeen
years old seiz’d his assassin till two more came to release him,
The three were all
torn and cover’d with the boy’s blood.
At eleven o’clock
began the burning of the bodies;
That is the tale of
the murder of the four hundred and twelve young men.
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Would you hear of an
old-time sea-fight?
Would you learn who
won by the light of the moon and stars?
List to the yarn, as
my grandmother’s father the sailor told it to me.
Our foe was no skulk
in his ship I tell you, (said he,)
His was the surly
English pluck, and there is no tougher or truer, and never was, and never will
be;
Along the lower’d eve
he came horribly raking us.
We closed with him,
the yards entangled, the cannon touch’d,
My captain lash’d
fast with his own hands.
We had receiv’d some
eighteen pound shots under the water,
On our lower-gun-deck
two large pieces had burst at the first fire, killing all around and blowing up
overhead.
Fighting at sun-down,
fighting at dark,
Ten o’clock at night,
the full moon well up, our leaks on the gain, and five feet of water reported,
The master-at-arms
loosing the prisoners confined in the after-hold to give them a chance for
themselves.
The transit to and
from the magazine is now stopt by the sentinels,
They see so many
strange faces they do not know whom to trust.
Our frigate takes
fire,
The other asks if we
demand quarter?
If our colors are
struck and the fighting done?
Now I laugh content,
for I hear the voice of my little captain,
We have not struck,
he composedly cries, we have just begun our part of the fighting.
Only three guns are
in use,
One is directed by
the captain himself against the enemy’s mainmast,
Two well serv’d with
grape and canister silence his musketry and clear his decks.
The tops alone second
the fire of this little battery, especially the main-top,
They hold out bravely
during the whole of the action.
Not a moment’s cease,
The leaks gain fast
on the pumps, the fire eats toward the powder-magazine.
One of the pumps has
been shot away, it is generally thought we are sinking.
Serene stands the
little captain,
He is not hurried,
his voice is neither high nor low,
His eyes give more
light to us than our battle-lanterns.
Toward twelve there
in the beams of the moon they surrender to us.
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Stretch’d and still
lies the midnight,
Two great hulls
motionless on the breast of the darkness,
Our vessel riddled
and slowly sinking, preparations to pass to the one we have conquer’d,
The captain on the
quarter-deck coldly giving his orders through a countenance white as a sheet,
Near by the corpse of
the child that serv’d in the cabin,
The dead face of an
old salt with long white hair and carefully curl’d whiskers,
The flames spite of
all that can be done flickering aloft and below,
The husky voices of
the two or three officers yet fit for duty,
Formless stacks of
bodies and bodies by themselves, dabs of flesh upon the masts and spars,
Cut of cordage,
dangle of rigging, slight shock of the soothe of waves,
Black and impassive
guns, litter of powder-parcels, strong scent,
A few large stars
overhead, silent and mournful shining,
Delicate sniffs of
sea-breeze, smells of sedgy grass and fields by the shore, death-messages given
in charge to survivors,
The hiss of the
surgeon’s knife, the gnawing teeth of his saw,
Wheeze, cluck, swash
of falling blood, short wild scream, and long, dull, tapering groan,
These so, these
irretrievable.
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You laggards there on
guard! look to your arms!
In at the conquer’d
doors they crowd! I am possess’d!
Embody all presences
outlaw’d or suffering,
See myself in prison
shaped like another man,
And feel the dull
unintermitted pain.
For me the keepers of
convicts shoulder their carbines and keep watch,
It is I let out in
the morning and barr’d at night.
Not a mutineer walks
handcuff’d to jail but I am handcuff’d to him and walk by his side,
(I am less the jolly
one there, and more the silent one with sweat on my twitching lips.)
Not a youngster is
taken for larceny but I go up too, and am tried and sentenced.
Not a cholera patient
lies at the last gasp but I also lie at the last gasp,
My face is
ash-color’d, my sinews gnarl, away from me people retreat.
Askers embody
themselves in me and I am embodied in them,
I project my hat, sit
shame-faced, and beg.
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Enough! enough!
enough!
Somehow I have been
stunn’d. Stand back!
Give me a little time
beyond my cuff’d head, slumbers, dreams, gaping,
I discover myself on
the verge of a usual mistake.
That I could forget
the mockers and insults!
That I could forget
the trickling tears and the blows of the bludgeons and hammers!
That I could look
with a separate look on my own crucifixion and bloody crowning.
I remember now,
I resume the
overstaid fraction,
The grave of rock
multiplies what has been confided to it, or to any graves,
Corpses rise, gashes
heal, fastenings roll from me.
I troop forth
replenish’d with supreme power, one of an average unending procession,
Inland and sea-coast
we go, and pass all boundary lines,
Our swift ordinances
on their way over the whole earth,
The blossoms we wear
in our hats the growth of thousands of years.
Eleves, I salute you!
come forward!
Continue your
annotations, continue your questionings.
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The friendly and
flowing savage, who is he?
Is he waiting for civilization,
or past it and mastering it?
Is he some
Southwesterner rais’d out-doors? is he Kanadian?
Is he from the
Mississippi country? Iowa, Oregon, California?
The mountains?
prairie-life, bush-life? or sailor from the sea?
Wherever he goes men
and women accept and desire him,
They desire he should
like them, touch them, speak to them, stay with them.
Behavior lawless as
snow-flakes, words simple as grass, uncomb’d head, laughter, and naiveté,
Slow-stepping feet,
common features, common modes and emanations,
They descend in new
forms from the tips of his fingers,
They are wafted with
the odor of his body or breath, they fly out of the glance of his eyes.
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Flaunt of the
sunshine I need not your bask—lie over!
You light surfaces
only, I force surfaces and depths also.
Earth! you seem to
look for something at my hands,
Say, old top-knot,
what do you want?
Man or woman, I might
tell how I like you, but cannot,
And might tell what
it is in me and what it is in you, but cannot,
And might tell that
pining I have, that pulse of my nights and days.
Behold, I do not give
lectures or a little charity,
When I give I give
myself.
You there, impotent,
loose in the knees,
Open your scarf’d
chops till I blow grit within you,
Spread your palms and
lift the flaps of your pockets,
I am not to be
denied, I compel, I have stores plenty and to spare,
And any thing I have
I bestow.
I do not ask who you
are, that is not important to me,
You can do nothing
and be nothing but what I will infold you.
To cotton-field
drudge or cleaner of privies I lean,
On his right cheek I
put the family kiss,
And in my soul I
swear I never will deny him.
On women fit for
conception I start bigger and nimbler babes.
(This day I am
jetting the stuff of far more arrogant republics.)
To any one dying,
thither I speed and twist the knob of the door.
Turn the bed-clothes
toward the foot of the bed,
Let the physician and
the priest go home.
I seize the
descending man and raise him with resistless will,
O despairer, here is
my neck,
By God, you shall not
go down! hang your whole weight upon me.
I dilate you with
tremendous breath, I buoy you up,
Every room of the
house do I fill with an arm’d force,
Lovers of me,
bafflers of graves.
Sleep—I and they keep
guard all night,
Not doubt, not decease
shall dare to lay finger upon you,
I have embraced you,
and henceforth possess you to myself,
And when you rise in
the morning you will find what I tell you is so.
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I am he bringing help
for the sick as they pant on their backs,
And for strong
upright men I bring yet more needed help.
I heard what was said
of the universe,
Heard it and heard it
of several thousand years;
It is middling well
as far as it goes—but is that all?
Magnifying and
applying come I,
Outbidding at the
start the old cautious hucksters,
Taking myself the
exact dimensions of Jehovah,
Lithographing Kronos,
Zeus his son, and Hercules his grandson,
Buying drafts of
Osiris, Isis, Belus, Brahma, Buddha,
In my portfolio
placing Manito loose, Allah on a leaf, the crucifix engraved,
With Odin and the
hideous-faced Mexitli and every idol and image,
Taking them all for
what they are worth and not a cent more,
Admitting they were
alive and did the work of their days,
(They bore mites as
for unfledg’d birds who have now to rise and fly and sing for themselves,)
Accepting the rough
deific sketches to fill out better in myself, bestowing them freely on each man
and woman I see,
Discovering as much
or more in a framer framing a house,
Putting higher claims
for him there with his roll’d-up sleeves driving the mallet and chisel,
Not objecting to
special revelations, considering a curl of smoke or a hair on the back of my
hand just as curious as any revelation,
Lads ahold of
fire-engines and hook-and-ladder ropes no less to me than the gods of the
antique wars,
Minding their voices
peal through the crash of destruction,
Their brawny limbs
passing safe over charr’d laths, their white foreheads whole and unhurt out of
the flames;
By the mechanic’s
wife with her babe at her nipple interceding for every person born,
Three scythes at
harvest whizzing in a row from three lusty angels with shirts bagg’d out at
their waists,
The snag-tooth’d
hostler with red hair redeeming sins past and to come,
Selling all he
possesses, traveling on foot to fee lawyers for his brother and sit by him
while he is tried for forgery;
What was strewn in
the amplest strewing the square rod about me, and not filling the square rod
then,
The bull and the bug
never worshipp’d half enough,
Dung and dirt more
admirable than was dream’d,
The supernatural of
no account, myself waiting my time to be one of the supremes,
The day getting ready
for me when I shall do as much good as the best, and be as prodigious;
By my life-lumps!
becoming already a creator,
Putting myself here
and now to the ambush’d womb of the shadows.
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A call in the midst
of the crowd,
My own voice, orotund
sweeping and final.
Come my children,
Come my boys and
girls, my women, household and intimates,
Now the performer
launches his nerve, he has pass’d his prelude on the reeds within.
Easily written
loose-finger’d chords—I feel the thrum of your climax and close.
My head slues round
on my neck,
Music rolls, but not
from the organ,
Folks are around me,
but they are no household of mine.
Ever the hard unsunk
ground,
Ever the eaters and
drinkers, ever the upward and downward sun, ever the air and the ceaseless
tides,
Ever myself and my
neighbors, refreshing, wicked, real,
Ever the old
inexplicable query, ever that thorn’d thumb, that breath of itches and thirsts,
Ever the vexer’s
hoot! hoot! till we find where the sly one hides and bring him forth,
Ever love, ever the
sobbing liquid of life,
Ever the bandage
under the chin, ever the trestles of death.
Here and there with
dimes on the eyes walking,
To feed the greed of
the belly the brains liberally spooning,
Tickets buying,
taking, selling, but in to the feast never once going,
Many sweating,
ploughing, thrashing, and then the chaff for payment receiving,
A few idly owning,
and they the wheat continually claiming.
This is the city and
I am one of the citizens,
Whatever interests
the rest interests me, politics, wars, markets, newspapers, schools,
The mayor and
councils, banks, tariffs, steamships, factories, stocks, stores, real estate
and personal estate.
The little plentiful
manikins skipping around in collars and tail’d coats,
I am aware who they
are, (they are positively not worms or fleas,)
I acknowledge the
duplicates of myself, the weakest and shallowest is deathless with me,
What I do and say the
same waits for them,
Every thought that
flounders in me the same flounders in them.
I know perfectly well
my own egotism,
Know my omnivorous
lines and must not write any less,
And would fetch you
whoever you are flush with myself.
Not words of routine
this song of mine,
But abruptly to
question, to leap beyond yet nearer bring;
This printed and
bound book—but the printer and the printing-office boy?
The well-taken photographs—but
your wife or friend close and solid in your arms?
The black ship mail’d
with iron, her mighty guns in her turrets—but the pluck of the captain and
engineers?
In the houses the
dishes and fare and furniture—but the host and hostess, and the look out of
their eyes?
The sky up there—yet
here or next door, or across the way?
The saints and sages
in history—but you yourself?
Sermons, creeds,
theology—but the fathomless human brain,
And what is reason?
and what is love? and what is life?
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I do not despise you
priests, all time, the world over,
My faith is the
greatest of faiths and the least of faiths,
Enclosing worship
ancient and modern and all between ancient and modern,
Believing I shall
come again upon the earth after five thousand years,
Waiting responses
from oracles, honoring the gods, saluting the sun,
Making a fetich of
the first rock or stump, powowing with sticks in the circle of obis,
Helping the llama or
brahmin as he trims the lamps of the idols,
Dancing yet through
the streets in a phallic procession, rapt and austere in the woods a
gymnosophist,
Drinking mead from
the skull-cup, to Shastas and Vedas admirant, minding the Koran,
Walking the
teokallis, spotted with gore from the stone and knife, beating the serpent-skin
drum,
Accepting the
Gospels, accepting him that was crucified, knowing assuredly that he is divine,
To the mass kneeling
or the puritan’s prayer rising, or sitting patiently in a pew,
Ranting and frothing
in my insane crisis, or waiting dead-like till my spirit arouses me,
Looking forth on
pavement and land, or outside of pavement and land,
Belonging to the
winders of the circuit of circuits.
One of that
centripetal and centrifugal gang I turn and talk like a man leaving charges
before a journey.
Down-hearted doubters
dull and excluded,
Frivolous, sullen,
moping, angry, affected, dishearten’d, atheistical,
I know every one of
you, I know the sea of torment, doubt, despair and unbelief.
How the flukes
splash!
How they contort
rapid as lightning, with spasms and spouts of blood!
Be at peace bloody
flukes of doubters and sullen mopers,
I take my place among
you as much as among any,
The past is the push
of you, me, all, precisely the same,
And what is yet
untried and afterward is for you, me, all, precisely the same.
I do not know what is
untried and afterward,
But I know it will in
its turn prove sufficient, and cannot fail.
Each who passes is
consider’d, each who stops is consider’d, not a single one can it fail.
It cannot fail the
young man who died and was buried,
Nor the young woman
who died and was put by his side,
Nor the little child
that peep’d in at the door, and then drew back and was never seen again,
Nor the old man who
has lived without purpose, and feels it with bitterness worse than gall,
Nor him in the poor
house tubercled by rum and the bad disorder,
Nor the numberless
slaughter’d and wreck’d, nor the brutish koboo call’d the ordure of humanity,
Nor the sacs merely
floating with open mouths for food to slip in,
Nor any thing in the
earth, or down in the oldest graves of the earth,
Nor any thing in the
myriads of spheres, nor the myriads of myriads that inhabit them,
Nor the present, nor
the least wisp that is known.
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It is time to explain
myself—let us stand up.
What is known I strip
away,
I launch all men and
women forward with me into the Unknown.
The clock indicates
the moment—but what does eternity indicate?
We have thus far
exhausted trillions of winters and summers,
There are trillions
ahead, and trillions ahead of them.
Births have brought
us richness and variety,
And other births will
bring us richness and variety.
I do not call one
greater and one smaller,
That which fills its
period and place is equal to any.
Were mankind
murderous or jealous upon you, my brother, my sister?
I am sorry for you,
they are not murderous or jealous upon me,
All has been gentle
with me, I keep no account with lamentation,
(What have I to do
with lamentation?)
I am an acme of
things accomplish’d, and I an encloser of things to be.
My feet strike an
apex of the apices of the stairs,
On every step bunches
of ages, and larger bunches between the steps,
All below duly
travel’d, and still I mount and mount.
Rise after rise bow
the phantoms behind me,
Afar down I see the
huge first Nothing, I know I was even there,
I waited unseen and
always, and slept through the lethargic mist,
And took my time, and
took no hurt from the fetid carbon.
Long I was hugg’d
close—long and long.
Immense have been the
preparations for me,
Faithful and friendly
the arms that have help’d me.
Cycles ferried my
cradle, rowing and rowing like cheerful boatmen,
For room to me stars
kept aside in their own rings,
They sent influences
to look after what was to hold me.
Before I was born out
of my mother generations guided me,
My embryo has never
been torpid, nothing could overlay it.
For it the nebula
cohered to an orb,
The long slow strata
piled to rest it on,
Vast vegetables gave
it sustenance,
Monstrous sauroids
transported it in their mouths and deposited it with care.
All forces have been
steadily employ’d to complete and delight me,
Now on this spot I
stand with my robust soul.
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O span of youth!
ever-push’d elasticity!
O manhood, balanced,
florid and full.
My lovers suffocate
me,
Crowding my lips,
thick in the pores of my skin,
Jostling me through
streets and public halls, coming naked to me at night,
Crying by day Ahoy!
from the rocks of the river, swinging and chirping over my head,
Calling my name from
flower-beds, vines, tangled underbrush,
Lighting on every
moment of my life,
Bussing my body with
soft balsamic busses,
Noiselessly passing
handfuls out of their hearts and giving them to be mine.
Old age superbly
rising! O welcome, ineffable grace of dying days!
Every condition
promulges not only itself, it promulges what grows after and out of itself,
And the dark hush
promulges as much as any.
I open my scuttle at
night and see the far-sprinkled systems,
And all I see
multiplied as high as I can cipher edge but the rim of the farther systems.
Wider and wider they
spread, expanding, always expanding,
Outward and outward
and forever outward.
My sun has his sun
and round him obediently wheels,
He joins with his
partners a group of superior circuit,
And greater sets
follow, making specks of the greatest inside them.
There is no stoppage
and never can be stoppage,
If I, you, and the
worlds, and all beneath or upon their surfaces, were this moment reduced back
to a pallid float, it would not avail in the long run,
We should surely
bring up again where we now stand,
And surely go as much
farther, and then farther and farther.
A few quadrillions of
eras, a few octillions of cubic leagues, do not hazard the span or make it
impatient,
They are but parts,
any thing is but a part.
See ever so far,
there is limitless space outside of that,
Count ever so much,
there is limitless time around that.
My rendezvous is
appointed, it is certain,
The Lord will be
there and wait till I come on perfect terms,
The great Camerado,
the lover true for whom I pine will be there.
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I know I have the
best of time and space, and was never measured and never will be measured.
I tramp a perpetual
journey, (come listen all!)
My signs are a
rain-proof coat, good shoes, and a staff cut from the woods,
No friend of mine
takes his ease in my chair,
I have no chair, no
church, no philosophy,
I lead no man to a
dinner-table, library, exchange,
But each man and each
woman of you I lead upon a knoll,
My left hand hooking
you round the waist,
My right hand
pointing to landscapes of continents and the public road.
Not I, not any one
else can travel that road for you,
You must travel it
for yourself.
It is not far, it is
within reach,
Perhaps you have been
on it since you were born and did not know,
Perhaps it is
everywhere on water and on land.
Shoulder your duds
dear son, and I will mine, and let us hasten forth,
Wonderful cities and
free nations we shall fetch as we go.
If you tire, give me
both burdens, and rest the chuff of your hand on my hip,
And in due time you
shall repay the same service to me,
For after we start we
never lie by again.
This day before dawn
I ascended a hill and look’d at the crowded heaven,
And I said to my
spirit When we become the enfolders of those orbs, and the pleasure and
knowledge of every thing in them, shall we be fill’d and satisfied then?
And my spirit said
No, we but level that lift to pass and continue beyond.
You are also asking
me questions and I hear you,
I answer that I
cannot answer, you must find out for yourself.
Sit a while dear son,
Here are biscuits to
eat and here is milk to drink,
But as soon as you
sleep and renew yourself in sweet clothes, I kiss you with a good-by kiss and
open the gate for your egress hence.
Long enough have you
dream’d contemptible dreams,
Now I wash the gum
from your eyes,
You must habit
yourself to the dazzle of the light and of every moment of your life.
Long have you timidly
waded holding a plank by the shore,
Now I will you to be
a bold swimmer,
To jump off in the
midst of the sea, rise again, nod to me, shout, and laughingly dash with your
hair.
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I am the teacher of
athletes,
He that by me spreads
a wider breast than my own proves the width of my own,
He most honors my
style who learns under it to destroy the teacher.
The boy I love, the
same becomes a man not through derived power, but in his own right,
Wicked rather than
virtuous out of conformity or fear,
Fond of his
sweetheart, relishing well his steak,
Unrequited love or a
slight cutting him worse than sharp steel cuts,
First-rate to ride,
to fight, to hit the bull’s eye, to sail a skiff, to sing a song or play on the
banjo,
Preferring scars and
the beard and faces pitted with small-pox over all latherers,
And those well-tann’d
to those that keep out of the sun.
I teach straying from
me, yet who can stray from me?
I follow you whoever
you are from the present hour,
My words itch at your
ears till you understand them.
I do not say these
things for a dollar or to fill up the time while I wait for a boat,
(It is you talking
just as much as myself, I act as the tongue of you,
Tied in your mouth,
in mine it begins to be loosen’d.)
I swear I will never
again mention love or death inside a house,
And I swear I will
never translate myself at all, only to him or her who privately stays with me
in the open air.
If you would
understand me go to the heights or water-shore,
The nearest gnat is
an explanation, and a drop or motion of waves a key,
The maul, the oar,
the hand-saw, second my words.
No shutter’d room or
school can commune with me,
But roughs and little
children better than they.
The young mechanic is
closest to me, he knows me well,
The woodman that
takes his axe and jug with him shall take me with him all day,
The farm-boy
ploughing in the field feels good at the sound of my voice,
In vessels that sail
my words sail, I go with fishermen and seamen and love them.
The soldier camp’d or
upon the march is mine,
On the night ere the
pending battle many seek me, and I do not fail them,
On that solemn night
(it may be their last) those that know me seek me.
My face rubs to the
hunter’s face when he lies down alone in his blanket,
The driver thinking
of me does not mind the jolt of his wagon,
The young mother and
old mother comprehend me,
The girl and the wife
rest the needle a moment and forget where they are,
They and all would
resume what I have told them.
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I have said that the
soul is not more than the body,
And I have said that
the body is not more than the soul,
And nothing, not God,
is greater to one than one’s self is,
And whoever walks a
furlong without sympathy walks to his own funeral drest in his shroud,
And I or you pocketless
of a dime may purchase the pick of the earth,
And to glance with an
eye or show a bean in its pod confounds the learning of all times,
And there is no trade
or employment but the young man following it may become a hero,
And there is no
object so soft but it makes a hub for the wheel’d universe,
And I say to any man
or woman, Let your soul stand cool and composed before a million universes.
And I say to mankind,
Be not curious about God,
For I who am curious
about each am not curious about God,
(No array of terms
can say how much I am at peace about God and about death.)
I hear and behold God
in every object, yet understand God not in the least,
Nor do I understand
who there can be more wonderful than myself.
Why should I wish to
see God better than this day?
I see something of
God each hour of the twenty-four, and each moment then,
In the faces of men
and women I see God, and in my own face in the glass,
I find letters from
God dropt in the street, and every one is sign’d by God’s name,
And I leave them
where they are, for I know that wheresoe’er I go,
Others will
punctually come for ever and ever.
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And as to you Death,
and you bitter hug of mortality, it is idle to try to alarm me.
To his work without
flinching the accoucheur comes,
I see the elder-hand
pressing receiving supporting,
I recline by the
sills of the exquisite flexible doors,
And mark the outlet,
and mark the relief and escape.
And as to you Corpse
I think you are good manure, but that does not offend me,
I smell the white roses
sweet-scented and growing,
I reach to the leafy
lips, I reach to the polish’d breasts of melons.
And as to you Life I
reckon you are the leavings of many deaths,
(No doubt I have died
myself ten thousand times before.)
I hear you whispering
there O stars of heaven,
O suns—O grass of
graves—O perpetual transfers and promotions,
If you do not say any
thing how can I say any thing?
Of the turbid pool
that lies in the autumn forest,
Of the moon that
descends the steeps of the soughing twilight,
Toss, sparkles of day
and dusk—toss on the black stems that decay in the muck,
Toss to the moaning
gibberish of the dry limbs.
I ascend from the
moon, I ascend from the night,
I perceive that the
ghastly glimmer is noonday sunbeams reflected,
And debouch to the steady
and central from the offspring great or small.
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There is that in me—I
do not know what it is—but I know it is in me.
Wrench’d and
sweaty—calm and cool then my body becomes,
I sleep—I sleep long.
I do not know it—it
is without name—it is a word unsaid,
It is not in any
dictionary, utterance, symbol.
Something it swings
on more than the earth I swing on,
To it the creation is
the friend whose embracing awakes me.
Perhaps I might tell
more. Outlines! I plead for my brothers and sisters.
Do you see O my
brothers and sisters?
It is not chaos or
death—it is form, union, plan—it is eternal life—it is Happiness.
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The past and present
wilt—I have fill’d them, emptied them,
And proceed to fill
my next fold of the future.
Listener up there!
what have you to confide to me?
Look in my face while
I snuff the sidle of evening,
(Talk honestly, no
one else hears you, and I stay only a minute longer.)
Do I contradict
myself?
Very well then I
contradict myself,
(I am large, I
contain multitudes.)
I concentrate toward
them that are nigh, I wait on the door-slab.
Who has done his
day’s work? who will soonest be through with his supper?
Who wishes to walk
with me?
Will you speak before
I am gone? will you prove already too late?
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The spotted hawk
swoops by and accuses me, he complains of my gab and my loitering.
I too am not a bit
tamed, I too am untranslatable,
I sound my barbaric
yawp over the roofs of the world.
The last scud of day
holds back for me,
It flings my likeness
after the rest and true as any on the shadow’d wilds,
It coaxes me to the
vapor and the dusk.
I depart as air, I
shake my white locks at the runaway sun,
I effuse my flesh in
eddies, and drift it in lacy jags.
I bequeath myself to
the dirt to grow from the grass I love,
If you want me again
look for me under your boot-soles.
You will hardly know
who I am or what I mean,
But I shall be good
health to you nevertheless,
And filter and fibre
your blood.
Failing to fetch me
at first keep encouraged,
Missing me one place
search another,
I stop somewhere
waiting for you.
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